Another one bites the dust

I'm not sure how to feel. In a way, I want to cry but at the same time, my head won't allow me to. Telling myself that it's no big deal and I didn't invest a lot to it anyway. But the truth is, its not that my heart was into it but that I can't figure out why I another man isn't interested in me.

Only a few days before we "met" I was thinking that I should open my horizons beyond the 30-something group of men. Rationalizing that someone in his early late 30s or early 40s would be mature and open about what he wanted and what he was willing to give. Like clock work this seemingly great 42 year old walks into my life and within 3 weeks, he's decided, without sharing his reasoning with me, that he's not interested in talking any longer. I guess that's the only think that I can call it since he refuses to respond to my messages.

Am I destined to be alone forever? Is there no one out there who is willing and able to love me? Or is Rosean right? No man wants, at first choice, a big girl...

Perhaps its my destiny. Not the destiny I want but maybe my hopes of meeting Mr. Right For Me just isn't a reality. Ugh. Back to focusing on school and a ton of other tasks to keep my mind off the fact that another year is coming to an end without a single date or prospect.